Hello, FTB team and players.
I'm here to tell for whoever is willing to read this, an extremely dull and tedious story, therefore, anyone with a short attention span shall be my guest to leave now - although, if you're part of the FTB team and or a Forgecraft member, I would kindly ask for you to read this, it would really mean the world to me.
First things first, I really need to explain that the reason I'm about to write this is not only my will to share my story to the FTB Team and/or whoever is reading this but it is mainly me trying to express my thankfulness for everything that this absolutely incredible group of people have done for me - But I'm probably rushing things up, let me start from the beginning.
First, let me introduce myself. My name is Thomaz, I'm 15, and I live in South America, more specifically, Brazil - therefore, I'm very sorry for any gramatical mistakes, or dull use of vocabulary, I'm really trying my best! Let me start by saying I'm a big fan of the FTB Modpacks, and the whole team that works on it, mainly because of my condition.
Since the very beginning of the year before last, I've been facing a somewhat severe case of social anxiety and depression, caused by family problems that I'm not really willing to share openly. I've visited, in total, three psychiatrists, and I'm currently taking three different pills - But that's not important.
Being completely honest, the main reason, among a thousand others, that I'm writing this text is because of Direwolf20 videos, mainly his Forgecraft ones - I'll go ahead of myself and say, no, this is not a request to play on the Forgecraft server, I fully understand that the server is for beta-testers and mod-developers only, and I completely respect that. On the other hand, I'm not saying I wouldn't like it, it would really be a pleasure, but as I said, I truly understand the rules, and I conformed myself into the fact that that's going to stay as a dream for now.
As I was saying, Direwolf20 really helped me to get through this situation as a whole - that might sound childish and somewhat too simple at first, but allow me to explain. School really triggered my anxiety, causing me to be incapable of going to it for almost two full months - To ease the anxiety I watched youtube videos before going to school, they relaxed me, that is for me like watching TV for others, it really was relaxing. Direwolf20 videos really were special to me, as he's one of the few youtubers, if not the only one I'm subscribed to, that post their videos at morning - that made him one of the few youtubers I watched daily, for a whole year. The feeling that the Forgecraft team members as @Direwolf20 himself, @Soaryn, @pahimar, @slowpoke, @fuj1n, @Jadedcat, and many others (who I'll continue to add as I discover their forum usernames) were more that simply youtubers and or mod-developers grew inside of me, I really liked seeing them as friends - as it's difficult for me to make real ones, that really was and is special to me. Seeing their friendship made me happy, in some sort of way - I'm really aware of how cheesy that sounds, but it is true, it's difficult to explain. His videos were an escape valve for me, basicly.
And I do am aware that the only thing making this story not fake are my bare and meaningless words, you have all the reasons to believe I'm lying to get attention, my only defense is to ask whoever is reading this to please, believe me.
Well, summing up all this mess of bad written and for much meaningless text, I really, really, really would like to thank every single Forgecraft and FTB Team member. You guys really made my little world much more bearable. I still do face a somewhat severe case of social anxiety and depression, but, at the other hand, slowly but surely, I feel like I'm getting better, mainly because of my "friends". And, althought I know this is fated to never get a response - I would never be that lucky - I just felt the need to say "thank you".
So, thank you guys, for everything - See ya'.
I'm here to tell for whoever is willing to read this, an extremely dull and tedious story, therefore, anyone with a short attention span shall be my guest to leave now - although, if you're part of the FTB team and or a Forgecraft member, I would kindly ask for you to read this, it would really mean the world to me.
First things first, I really need to explain that the reason I'm about to write this is not only my will to share my story to the FTB Team and/or whoever is reading this but it is mainly me trying to express my thankfulness for everything that this absolutely incredible group of people have done for me - But I'm probably rushing things up, let me start from the beginning.
First, let me introduce myself. My name is Thomaz, I'm 15, and I live in South America, more specifically, Brazil - therefore, I'm very sorry for any gramatical mistakes, or dull use of vocabulary, I'm really trying my best! Let me start by saying I'm a big fan of the FTB Modpacks, and the whole team that works on it, mainly because of my condition.
Since the very beginning of the year before last, I've been facing a somewhat severe case of social anxiety and depression, caused by family problems that I'm not really willing to share openly. I've visited, in total, three psychiatrists, and I'm currently taking three different pills - But that's not important.
Being completely honest, the main reason, among a thousand others, that I'm writing this text is because of Direwolf20 videos, mainly his Forgecraft ones - I'll go ahead of myself and say, no, this is not a request to play on the Forgecraft server, I fully understand that the server is for beta-testers and mod-developers only, and I completely respect that. On the other hand, I'm not saying I wouldn't like it, it would really be a pleasure, but as I said, I truly understand the rules, and I conformed myself into the fact that that's going to stay as a dream for now.
As I was saying, Direwolf20 really helped me to get through this situation as a whole - that might sound childish and somewhat too simple at first, but allow me to explain. School really triggered my anxiety, causing me to be incapable of going to it for almost two full months - To ease the anxiety I watched youtube videos before going to school, they relaxed me, that is for me like watching TV for others, it really was relaxing. Direwolf20 videos really were special to me, as he's one of the few youtubers, if not the only one I'm subscribed to, that post their videos at morning - that made him one of the few youtubers I watched daily, for a whole year. The feeling that the Forgecraft team members as @Direwolf20 himself, @Soaryn, @pahimar, @slowpoke, @fuj1n, @Jadedcat, and many others (who I'll continue to add as I discover their forum usernames) were more that simply youtubers and or mod-developers grew inside of me, I really liked seeing them as friends - as it's difficult for me to make real ones, that really was and is special to me. Seeing their friendship made me happy, in some sort of way - I'm really aware of how cheesy that sounds, but it is true, it's difficult to explain. His videos were an escape valve for me, basicly.
And I do am aware that the only thing making this story not fake are my bare and meaningless words, you have all the reasons to believe I'm lying to get attention, my only defense is to ask whoever is reading this to please, believe me.
Well, summing up all this mess of bad written and for much meaningless text, I really, really, really would like to thank every single Forgecraft and FTB Team member. You guys really made my little world much more bearable. I still do face a somewhat severe case of social anxiety and depression, but, at the other hand, slowly but surely, I feel like I'm getting better, mainly because of my "friends". And, althought I know this is fated to never get a response - I would never be that lucky - I just felt the need to say "thank you".
So, thank you guys, for everything - See ya'.
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