I understand how it is. I've recorded (but not released) several test commentaries, and on playback I see and hear myself doing things I *still* need to work on. One really annoying habit I have is that "running around in circles and wobbling my view" when I'm explaining something. I think it is because my hands need something to do when I'm talking, so they just "get busy" and I don't even notice I'm doing it until after the fact.
I've cleaned up my word choices pretty well, although creepers can sometimes elicit a doozy from me every once in a while. My big issue is to try and stop the nervous unnecessary movement.
In any case, I'm following your channel to see how things progress, like I said earlier I think you have some good potential!