|Christopher Watson|
|Hospital|
Her smile, her laughter, it brought a familiar warm, fuzzy feeling into my stomach, which I couldn't quite label myself. It's not something you can describe with words, it's one of those things that to understand, only feeling it for yourself - hell, I, myself, had forgotten what it felt like, until just now. Her words hit me like a truck, I could almost feel my body moving backwards. "
It's there now, the proof, she likes you, Watson. What now?" My inner self sighs. I tried speaking, but I ended up choking on my own words before I could actually say something, my smile faded just slightly.
-"I-I think... I do like you." -I starred at the floor- "I just, you don't... I shouldn't..." - I'm getting lost in my own words again. I finished the sentence with a sigh. I tried keeping my happy, comforting expression up, but it was getting harder, every second.
I couldn't stop questioning: "
But, what in this says that it'll be different, exactly?" I mean, I know something does it, but I'm not sure what, and I'm not just one hundred percent sure if I can't trust it, considering the past events. Maybe it's her smile, or how similar we are, hell if I knew, but hell, do I mind. If the Christopher from one, two months ago heard this situation, he'd probably laugh, and then punch his future self in the face. ""
It wasn't a tragedy, it was a lesson", remember?!", he'd say. My headache started again, and memories started flowing in. I kept staring at the floor and as the first tear left my left eye, I managed to clean it with my wrist. I tried to not let the other ones appear, I didn't want another set of tears to be shed tonight. I look at her, trying my max to share light smile once more.
-"I..." -I couldn't say anything. My mind was too busy processing other things too even allow me to speak. I tried my max to not let her get the wrong idea, but I couldn't, I didn't knew what to say. Another tear appeared on my eye, and without a single word to say, I did the only thing I could think of. Telling my traumatized side to go fuck itself, I made a serious expression, as if I had just decided something. Then, I proceeded to lean towards her, kissing her in the lips.