This is a good question, actually. Can someone name one other mod where the reputation of the mod or the author has been tarnished by people modifying the mod?
Take this with a grain of salt as something mostly from a years-long lurker, looking at the modding fandom mostly from the outside.
Reika, I love you, I do.
I like your ethos with your mods. I love your enthusiasm for them. I love their quality. I even love how you stick to your guns. They may not all be for me, but I cannot doubt that they're cool. I can very much understand your stake in them
vis a vis a labor of love. I think that shows.
But... you are also a perpetual motion machine of drama. You need no outside assistance to keep going. I've run into people like that over and over, in my life, and especially online. Who advertise and tout their victimization, and make it into a perfect self-fulfilling prophecy. And it makes me wince every time because the amount of misery there must be absolutely intense. And also
completely unnecessary.
Something bad happens. Just one or two times. They rail about it for literal years, convincing themselves it's the norm. They become defensive and paranoid, thinking they're constantly under attack. That defensiveness makes everyone think they're unpleasant and unfriendly and sometimes downright mean. So people do begin to genuinely dislike said person. And every time that happens it gets slotted into that framework of 'everyone is against me'.
And they never, ever, ever realize that if they just chilled the heck out, and stopped bringing up how hated and persecuted they are, it would all
stop.
But I can't say that I've ever seen anyone drop said sack of psychological bricks. Every single time they've just clung harder and harder to it until they left the relationships, community fandom or whatever they were part of.
And I would very much prefer if that didn't happen with you. But... at this point, I'm not hopeful. After all, I'm some random jerk-butt online that you've never seen before. Probably just another meanie-pants mustache-twister giggling at hurting you.
But on the off chance that it will be considered: The person tarnishing your reputation is generally
you. People aren't doubting your skill as a modmaker, nor the quality of your work. I can't recall amongst hundreds or thousands of times I've seen RC mentioned, blaming it for being a buggy mess or crapware.
[sorry!]
People just think you're a jerk.[/sorry!]
And people will stop thinking that when you step back, take a breath, and just be that awesome person I've seen you be in threads around here. Ever notice that people are very nice to you in those threads? And not so much when you advertising how you're actually the holocaust-survivor-equivalent of the modmaking community, perfectly unique in your trials amongst modmakers?
I know it's all easier said and done, as with any hangup. But chilling out? Letting the past be the past?
Everything would get
better if you did that.