tl;dr - 26 yr old complains about life, can't play Minecraft "properly" and tolerate some difficulty curves of some mods and it's kinda impacting his life. Need halp. You do not have to read, but by posting I do feel better already. Thank you.
Hi guys,
It is a recurring thread and I have read a lot of threads discussing a "Minecraft Burn" or lack of creativity or motivation to play it. Since I'm frustrated by it, I feel like I should get this off my chest.
I do have a recurring health problem. Mental health problem. I'm battling with my depression for about 4 to 5 years. I received special treatment, took meds and got my up's and down's along these years. Had to stop it all because my self-steem was (is) going downhill because of all the weight I got from the meds.
And I got no money to go back to treatment. I'm paying for my future home (IRL) . There is no way to spend 200 usd monthly. Unfortunetaly my parents don't understand the matter, but they are helping with my wedding, so that is a relief.
So, my only way to turn off my all problems is by playing in my desktop that my fianceé helped me build. She's not that into games but she knows how important it is to me. After she and her father sold a house that belonged to her deceased sister, she got the money to buy a new mobo and a graphics card.
I live in a country, Brazil, that everything is expensive. Everything. And our money doesn't worth much. I am a general manager of a company and I got the same amount a McDonalds employee gets in the USA. The thoughts of throwing everything in the air and just run with my fiancee haunts me every night. It's been hell for me for about a year.
The weight and responsabilities of a grown me are wearing me, killing my soul every day. I see other people growing and moving on with their lifes and I can't get happy about them, neither I can see myself in the mirror, acknowledge that I have to improve my skills and start new hobbies, study something, but I can't find the motivation to do it.
Motivation, that's what's killing me.
4 years ago, when I decided to search help, the main thing I noticed was that I couldn't play anything. My main escape from reality, my drug, wasn't satisfying me anymore. Then, I noticed that something was wrong. And it's kinda happening again.
Minecraft is a game that always pulled me in, sucking hours of my life. And I always enjoyed. I built things, built little and simple gizmos, ore processing facilities. Nothing fancy, but every building was a accomplishment and always cheer'd me up. Minecraft helps me a lot everyday.
But I'm stuck. My "medicine" is not helping anymore. I'm playing Hermitcraft Modsauce on the ATL Launcher, dug a cave, built a simple Ender IO ore processing system and... I'm stuck. Everytime I load my map the only thing that I can do is to mine endlessly. I feel I'm growing tired of it all. Tried playing with a few of IRL friends but I do not have the time to teach them to play and my playstyle don't match them. And it's real hard to find a server with tolerable lag to play.
I really like the concept of GalacticCraft but I don't know how to start or where to start, since I don't even have a base in the first place.
Hi guys,
It is a recurring thread and I have read a lot of threads discussing a "Minecraft Burn" or lack of creativity or motivation to play it. Since I'm frustrated by it, I feel like I should get this off my chest.
I do have a recurring health problem. Mental health problem. I'm battling with my depression for about 4 to 5 years. I received special treatment, took meds and got my up's and down's along these years. Had to stop it all because my self-steem was (is) going downhill because of all the weight I got from the meds.
And I got no money to go back to treatment. I'm paying for my future home (IRL) . There is no way to spend 200 usd monthly. Unfortunetaly my parents don't understand the matter, but they are helping with my wedding, so that is a relief.
So, my only way to turn off my all problems is by playing in my desktop that my fianceé helped me build. She's not that into games but she knows how important it is to me. After she and her father sold a house that belonged to her deceased sister, she got the money to buy a new mobo and a graphics card.
I live in a country, Brazil, that everything is expensive. Everything. And our money doesn't worth much. I am a general manager of a company and I got the same amount a McDonalds employee gets in the USA. The thoughts of throwing everything in the air and just run with my fiancee haunts me every night. It's been hell for me for about a year.
The weight and responsabilities of a grown me are wearing me, killing my soul every day. I see other people growing and moving on with their lifes and I can't get happy about them, neither I can see myself in the mirror, acknowledge that I have to improve my skills and start new hobbies, study something, but I can't find the motivation to do it.
Motivation, that's what's killing me.
4 years ago, when I decided to search help, the main thing I noticed was that I couldn't play anything. My main escape from reality, my drug, wasn't satisfying me anymore. Then, I noticed that something was wrong. And it's kinda happening again.
Minecraft is a game that always pulled me in, sucking hours of my life. And I always enjoyed. I built things, built little and simple gizmos, ore processing facilities. Nothing fancy, but every building was a accomplishment and always cheer'd me up. Minecraft helps me a lot everyday.
But I'm stuck. My "medicine" is not helping anymore. I'm playing Hermitcraft Modsauce on the ATL Launcher, dug a cave, built a simple Ender IO ore processing system and... I'm stuck. Everytime I load my map the only thing that I can do is to mine endlessly. I feel I'm growing tired of it all. Tried playing with a few of IRL friends but I do not have the time to teach them to play and my playstyle don't match them. And it's real hard to find a server with tolerable lag to play.
I really like the concept of GalacticCraft but I don't know how to start or where to start, since I don't even have a base in the first place.