Lots of things.
1. I don't like the direction Thaumcraft's been taken.
2. It's a convoluted clusterfuck of wat to figure out.
3. I don't like Azanor's approach to both the community
and his mod.
4. I don't want to promote it anymore.
Look, I've said from the beginning I'm not in this for the credit and I never will be, however the first words from Azanor, after he was practically dragged into a medium where we could talk freely, were just sarcastic and mean spirited. I put a lot of work into this guide back in the day, hours and days from my life I could have spent with the wife or doing something else and for him to have taken the attitude he took with me despite that just left a scarring impression on me and his mod.
Made me feel, for lack of a better word, disgusted. Disgusted in myself for promoting him, his mod and the direction it was taking.
Azanor's probably a nice guy to his friends, his patreons, whatever, I don't care. What happened felt like a sucker punch and it pissed me off and upset me enough to leave that lasting impression.
The only reason I would even consider redoing this guide is as a reference guide for myself, but even then I wouldn't feel right withholding it for myself, adversely I wouldn't feel right promoting his mod anymore.
I know I say I promoted his mod as if what I did had a major hand in it's success and I know that isn't the case. At all. If I had any benefit towards it's success at all I consider it minor at best and frankly even that small amount to me would now go against my principles.
And I'm not just saying this to cause drama, air dirty laundry or to get attention because I don't want any of that. Hell I'd be happy for a mod to lock this topic and delete this post. By all means. I say this because this is my feelings towards the guide in general, the guide used to be very important to me and with a
million fucking views I'd think it's important to you guys too and that you should know what I as it's creator am thinking towards it.
I don't know what I should do.
I kind of really wish someone else would do the guide instead.